because it'll never be the same without you

hi everyone
i'm finally back to blgging after lke so long ain't it
haha sorry, cause there's really nth much to blog abt my boring and pathetic life
i'm at terminal 3 changi airport now,
will be leaving soon for china, flight is at 3
siting down in the lounge with samuel and sheryl
all using the internet provided
thank god there's internet if not i'm gonna be bored to death.
right now i'm already super tired and restless
cant wait to board the airplane, so i can finally take a nap.
i think i'll be reaching china around 6 or 7?
yeah around there.
the funny thing is that, i havent even left singapore but i'm alr missing her
same goes to her as well i guess(twitter)
well...i think she's probably sleeping now. while i'm bloging this
hiya...it'll only be 8 days that i'm gone
but it'll feel like years to me, cause we cant contact each other.
ok gotta stop go now
will blog more when i return from my trip alright ?
love you my dear
bye

loving you is like breathing, how can i stop ?

"thinker"

here's your pretty unglam, leyun

no matter where we'll be going, i promise you'll always be kept in my heart

hi

today was the last day of school, ast day of 2.5,

last day of seeing you sigh...i really wanna rewind time,

was i taking everything i had for granted ?

we'll i'm sorry,my sister ain't gonna go same class as me next year

it feels like a part of me is suddenly torned apart especially when saw her crying so badly, i totally lost control of my tears too i want you back to my life ,

you're the one that's been always there for me

i love you ruying , my dearest sister ever

okay after that part, i found out you got same class as me !

i was totally shocked i didnt even expect you to get into same class as me its great news .i was fugging happy

the feeling was undescribable but i couldnt show it cause i was crying we're gonna be classmates ! first time ! arent you happy ?

haha i know you are cause you can be with me like 24/7 LOL not that exaggerating la, but you get what i mean right ?

yeah. oh ya i still owe you a long letter via your blog right ?

i'll get it done ASAP alright ?

patience my dear okay i have to go now.

i love you .

she's the sweetest melody

only you

i cried today , even worse

because ... she almost wanted to break with me 

almost , but end up never

cause end up i manage to convinced not to 

the reason she wanted to break is because she kept blaming herself that she's always causing me trouble , always making me cry , always letting me down.

that was super immature to think this way 

silly girl, i will always love you no matter what 

cause i love you just the way you are 

like the lyrics :

"when i see you face, there's not a thing i would change cause you're amazing just the way you are "

"when you smile . the whole world stops and stares for a while cause girl you're amazing just the way you are "

 

i love you leyun 

love is a battlefield

make it stop

sweet 14th

ROAR EVERYONE I'M BACK !
071010 was the best day.
with leyun, charmaine(twinny), ruying,brandi,huijuan,geena(spongebob group) shinee grooup. micaela, michelle , zann ,clarice and many more.
this are the things we did at sentosa!

DAY 1
woke uo at around 8 in the morning,
texted leyun /charmaine
leyun told me she wasnt coming, i almost cried.
skip abit (too long)
went seranggon mrt to pick ruying.huijuan,brandi.geena,rachel up
reach vivocity
meet everyone there.
OMG guess who i saw on the escalator ?!
it was leyun and charmaine, i totally screamed at them.
they came up with one stupid prank to give me a surprise that they were coming when they say they were not.
HAHA i was suddenly high at that point of time.
okay we headed to pizza hut for lunch. super nice and we were damm full.
after that i went to pick up leyun from macs somewhere nearby pizza hut.
we proceeded to vivocity straight away.
it was like drizilling !
so we quickly check in into the chalet
we stayed in there and slacked abit .watched some movie
i was siting in a corner with leyun.
the rest were siting on the bed, eating , laughing. talking , singing.
HAHA quite noisy though.
we waited for more ppl to come
more ppl come alr , we went to the beach
played volleyball with shinee group(jewel.juliana,wanrong,nikki)
and hazel group(me, leyun.rachel.hazel).
had fun.lots of laughter
the rest were walking on the beach taking photos
we went back to the chalet at around 6 plus.
leyun and charmaine went to plaza sin to collect my present
we had dinner first.(catering)
i keep spilling food on ruying , haha serve her right
after that around 7.50 plus ? leyun and charmaine came back !
i opened my present , WAH it was a bracelet with my name engrave on it, AWW~so nice
(long storyafter that)
we sat on te d, and we had some girls talk
everyone was like confessing and sharing thier secrets (shhhh....)
slept at around 4 plus after that
8 of us slept tgt
me,ruying.rachel.brandi.huijuan.geena.micaela.michelle

DAY 2
woke up at 7 plus. wash up and left chalet at around 9+
we went for breakfast at a restaurant near the beach
headed to sit the ludge/skyride after that
family peackage of 8
total 49 bucks
it was damm fun especially the ludge
yeah i hope everyone enjoyed themself
after that , we sat the tram one whole round siloso beach
decided to go to the beach to suntent since the sun so bright
WAH it was damm warm
so me and micaela went into the water
it was super shiok
after playing for a few hours.
we saw celestial and the rest.
we got a shock at first. than we continued playing and ignored them
haha me micaela geena decided to build a mini sandcastle
quite fail one luh...
play play half way i give up.
i wanted to wet someone so i chose ruying since she was super dry.
haha i splash her with lots of water first than i went forward to hug her.
LOL she was super wet alr. YAY me
hmmm...letme think still got what.
oh ya we went back to the chalet . change bathe
went lunch at around 4
everyone was like starving alr
went back to chalet and slack
until 6 plus, everyone started leaving.
my parents and i send them off at vivo and we headed for dinner at swensens
eat ice cream
send a long long long longggggggggggggg text to everyone
waited for my cousins to come '
went to resort world
omg there was a huge candy shop named candylicious
went in
IT WAS LIKE HEAVEN !
bought many sweets
tired, went back to chalet and slept early

DAY 3
day with cousins

14th

ROAR I"M BACK !

"we stopped checking for monsters under our bed when we realize they were in us."

07072010

"your smile means the whole world to me"

its finally my bithday ! YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS
its on 7 oct
i'll be having chalet at sentosa coasta sands resort
with all my beloved frineds
names : ruying brandi huijuan geena rachel jewel juliana nikki wanrong michelle micaela bernice tessa vanna jocelyn natalie michelle tan zann
and of course me darling :leyun and charmaine
hope all of them can come. especially the last two mention !
haha yeah its gonna be fun i swear !
its gonna be the best party ever in history of my entire life.
somemore. it'll be my 3rd month with leyun. and exams are over
so there are so many things to celebrate on 7 october
haha awesome :)
will blog more once my party's over .
LOVE YOU <3

obsessed

what if i dive off at the edge of my life and there's nothing beneath ?

tired of fighting

i'm happy for you. really i am.but inside

its killing me

hate is easy. love takes courage

the end

"shall i end everything? all it takes is just a single step"

leyun mum found out abt me and her again.
at first i take it like it was nth serious
but after that leyun didnt contact me so i got a little bit worried
like very . i called her badminton friends to check on her but she didnt turn up in sch
i was like omg how...
i went out with my cousins just now
bought stickies, hmmm most probably giving some of my dearest !
yeah be honoured for those who will be getting it
so after i reach my cousin's hse.
i switch on the com and i saw a tag from leyun.
i was so damm relieved
so she's been trying to contact me through my other number
but my other sim card is not with me at all.
so i didnt read her text
arg silly girl
anw text me k leyun. i'm waiting .
love you

true stories will never have happy endings

today i woke up smiling for no reason, i paused and i realised it was because of you

i woke up pretty early today.
anw here's a text that leyun send me, she asked me to post abt her so i decided to choose to write abt the msg she send me in the morning.haha its damm long.

hi celine.leyun here, haha i know you know it's me.ok i just confused myself.anyway i'm supposed to send you a long text to you right? is 4 textx length enough? ok i just used up one.
anyway i just want to tell you that i really treasure the times that we have spent together .although it's only 2 months sincewe've been together.i feel that it's been like forever .ok maybe not forever but for a very long time.i just wanna tell you that you really mean alot to me and i love you alot alot.aiya you know what i mean right? if you dontthen you're dumb.haha joking.dont angry k.i also wanna say thanks alot cause you have been there for me and the one who has beem understanding me.so thank you ! anyway i got nothing to say already.haha ok bye.i love you alot k.

aww... so sweet and nice loveyou too leyun,
i hope you lve your post abt you.\
bye love

the way i loved you

a dedication for my sweet sweet leyun !

YONG LEYUN ! your small little dedication from me is here:)



firstly, i want to tell you that the pictures we took on sat is below, pls scroll down to see it
seconldly...yourdedication starts here

hi leyun. you deserve this post after you haing done like so many things for me.
i just wanna tell you i loveeeee you till there's aint any other words to describe this feeling !
and you know this best. things that you've done that really touched me:

number 1 >> you're always there for me whenever i may need you
number 2>> you will do anything just to make me happy( you got me a ring when i told you to )
haha aaww.. bit its also cause you wanted to give me smth .
number 3>> you'll always accompany me after school just because you wanna see me
and spend more time with me to make me happy (same here )
number 4>> haha and you always pay for everything i want (you've spend a bomb on me like
seriously)
number 5>>you're always sacrificing for me
number 6>>you love me alot alot alota alot

LOL . honured now ? you should be .
although we've onlybeen tgt for like close to 2 months
but it alr feels like i've known you from the start, it feels like i've known you for so long
i really love you and i'm declaring this fact in front of everyone
i know you love me too, you said so yourself ever since 07072010 .(engrave on the ring)
leyunleyun~you are really the most important person to me, and i know i'm the most important too , am i right ? :)
anw i have nth to say alr, i just hope... this love between us will never end k? promise me that .
I LOVE YOU :)

FROLICK with rachel wong !

out with leyun at vivo on saturday morning :)

aww...

eh where you go !! you suppose to be taking picture with me ! grr~

haha thats better :)

I LOVE YOU LEYUN :)

things change. people change.feelings change

i guess i just have to keep waiting

3 DAYS 2 NIGHT !!!

FIRST DAY

reach school, get our groupings and instructors
my camp mates were :rachel, susanna,le yun, zann,minna, shan hui,jia en ,eva,vanessa,valerie,eunice and many others
our awesome group name was WOO HOO !!!
my instuctor was EUNICE !! and BEAR !!
we arrive at jalan behtear at around 10 plus?
went to our hut , mine was number 3 :)
settled down, put our things and had lunch
next thing i knew...i didnt bring my plate ! oh no... so i use that type of dispoable one from the school canteen .hehe
after lunch , we went to do the rock climbing stuff and i was chosen to do it .
so i manage to completed it ! yes !
after that we went to low elements
we climb the low wall and i was the only one to do the high wall ALL BY MYSELF.
than when i got up the high wall , the instructor said : okay we're running out of time, let's proceed to the next activity!
which means that i went up the high wall for no reason -.-
watse my time and strength ...
okay next we proceeded to rafting ! yes!
our so called raft was a bit fail at first but in the end we were alright :)
went to bathe after that .okay had dinner alr than we had some activities.
KINAPPED ! our leader was kidnapp and we got to find her
we were the first group to win !
YAY ! WOO HOO :)
lights out was at 11pm.
would be the leader for the next day

SECOND DAY

woke up at 6 just to wake other group members up
cause i'm the group leader to day :)
okay went for breakfast
went to do our first activity :outdoor cooking !
we bbq a banana and a orange with egg inside
eew it was damm gross but nice !
after that , we went to do abseiling and flying fox
i did abseiling though ui was so damm scared but i tried :)
when i reach the top , i was like so scared and worried that i would like drop down or smth
but i went down quite smoothly!
it was lunch time and it was raining :(
so we had to stay indoors to do some wet weather activities but it was also fun
after everyone was done, we headed to thoise high elements
i did the single log thing and i was SABOED by the instrucor kelvin ( we call him pink socks !)
when i went up the thing he was pulling the rope damm tightly
and when i crss the log alr , was about to reach the middle, he ask me to stop and do our grp cheer . WTH RIGHT? okay i shouted like damm loud tgt with my very supportive groupmates ! next he made me do the chicken dance in the air ! i was like so embarrassed la ! WTH AGAIN RIGHT? ! purposely one ! next time , never ever disturb an instructor before you do the high elements !
okay after that i was puit incharge of the activities my group would be doing for campfire night !
so after much consideration, we decided top a dance -ALL FOR ONW -HSM2 because it must be smth to with friendship and togetherness ~:)
teach them the actions, before that it was kind of messy but some caught up with us and we finish the dance within less than 10 mins . good right ?!
we relaesed them to bathe first and ltr assemble to rehearse the dance again, it was very sucessful ! :)
i teach them only the chorus part and for the begining first few stanzas because of lack of time i only teach those fast learners
it was great also of course !
finall after dinner , we had our campfire , and we were the first group to present :)
everyone was doing thier best and i was very happy and proud of them
i love you WOO HOO -ERS :)
lights out was at 12am today so everyone was like walking around including me , i went to huijuan and brandi's hut for fun cause i was kinda bored :)

THIRD DAY /LAST DAY :(

it was the last day of camp. sadly :('
woke up at 7 today .
assemble at 8 am
pack everyting and it was time for brealfast
after that , it was devotion ,followed by prize presentation :)
although we didnt win , but at least i know that at least all of us did our best to put in all our effort to win , which i'm actually very proud of the group :)
that''s all for the sec2 camp!
hope that i would be able to be in the came group again next year !
once again , I LOVE YOU WOO HOO-ERS :)

i wish i'll start my day with a big smile because of you

morning !
rachel came my hse to do the chinses project today
she came at aroung 9 and left at abt 11.45 plus
cause she got some church thing
her trip here was kinda pointless -.-
cause my com got no chinese words so we cant do
then she give up , say she bring home and try to do
than she suggested to walk around at daiso
we went down, walk around, came up from daiso
than we saw food selling downstairs ! which was really tempting !!!!
so we bought some stuff to eat :)
now she left alr , i'm so bored !!
have to start doing homework now cause sch gonna start within a few days time
and so is sec 2 CAMP !!! YAY! (everyting s prepared alr )
cant wait for sch to start i guess cause we can see each other again :)
see you my dear friends !

BATAM (TURI BEACH)

back form holidays !!

hi world !
went to batam(turi beach) a few days ago and now i'm back !
had lots of fun there this time
went there for 3 days and 2 nights only
it was very relaxing there which is totally differnet from singapore
i love it there
might be going again
took many pictures and will upload it ASAP !
the view over there was amazing !
you guys will love it !
okay byes !

tonight

hi.
ytd was a VVV tiring day at ECP with miss brndi (biaomei)
this was things that i rmb the most :
1. we got into bus43
2. brandi carried this big black bag with her skates inside
3. everyone was like staring at her because the bag look like got some suspicoius stuff inside
4.brandi didnt know which stop to alight
5.she press the stop button for 2 times and it was wrong , driver look very angry cause we were the only passenger in the bus
6.we alghted from the bus, walk to ECP
7.it was RAINING !
8.we had lunch first at macs
9.we chnange into our blades,put our bags ionto a locker
10.blade around ECP
11. stop awhile at some shop, buy drink and sit down to rest
12.i got a blister so went to 7-11 to get plaster, it cost 2.75
13.continue to blade around, saw my friend and said "hi"
14.went to take our bags ,change out of our blades
15. walk to 7-11 to uby drink
16.walk to parkway parade
17. brandi donated 5 cents, how generous !
18. looking for bus stop, sat bus 43 to paya lebar interchange, sat mrt to bugis
19. we were carrying the big bag and everyone was like so suspicious and staring at our bags . just nice got the announcement "dear passengeers, if you see any suspicious item , please proceed to the office . thank you "
20.we laugh .LOL
21.reach bugis alr ,brandi wanted to buy her sheer tights
22. look over the whole of bugis and finally found it at cotton on -$4.95. brandi donated 5 cents again
23.saw a wallet i want -$41.90
24.went to DIVA and saw many stuff. brandi didnt know got such thing as a mood ring -.-
25.brandi wanted to eat yougurt so we went down and buy at JCO . $3.00
26. sat down there and waited for my parents to come to join us
27.we went to some restaurant to eat , took very long
28.and then got this xiao long bao is giant size one so we order. its super cute okay! cause its so damm huge !and we must use a straw to suck out the soup inside . the skin was very chewwy
29.was super full!
30.we went home after that , brandi grandpa came to fetch her from my hse.

IT WAS SO FUN AND TIRING !
thanks biaomei for this day !
LOVE YOU :)

all i want to do is to apologize for being me

this GREY HAT is $23.90

this shoes are from NEW LOOK . price $33.90

so bored today

woke up pretty early cause i slept very early yesterday.

the picture with me wearing that hat was taken on saturday

in a shop in novena i velocity

the grey hat is not mine. just a random hat that i tried on
it cost 23.90 so didnt buy

just take picture for fun

nth to blog abt today so i shall blog abt ytd !

yesterday sunday 6 june

went to kallang leisurepark for breakfast with my family and my uncle and aunty after tuition in the morning

headed to suntec city after that to do some shopping

mummy didnt allow me to buy anything sadly cause she thinks i have too many clothes at home which i havent wear yet -.- that is so untrue so i saw a few things i like and wanted to buy but she didnt allow
and yet she bought like so much . she spend like abt 400+ alr !

tsk ~still say me .

after shopping, went to visit my grandma in TTSH

she looks better to me now, so i think she should be discharged in like a few days time !

after that we went to but dinner back home.

reach home alr we sit down and watch tv.

and blah blah blah ...

oh btw i took a few pictures on those things that i like alot ! :)

but shall only upload one :)

A smile hides my pain, a hug masks my heartache, and a laugh covers my tears

You don't know
You can't see
What really goes on
Inside of me
My eyes shield
How I feel inside
You don't know
How much I've cried
My mouth restricts
What I'd really say
And make you think
I'm perfectly okay
I know you tried
You mean well
But I have things
I'd never tell
To truly laugh
To really smile
Is something I haven't
Done in a while
You'll never know
How I really feel
I don't know how long
It will take to heal.
Just know that
I still love you
After everything That I've been through.
You'll never see Inside my mind
I'm protecting you
From what you'd find.
I protect you because I love you so.
This is my pain You'll never know.

pictures of me and brandifoowenfei !

brandi nails are NEON ORANGE ! awesome ~

the process :

neon orange : face shop -$2.90

BRANDI thought she was a rockstar

my nice and awesome friends - you are featured on my wallpaper, you should be honured